In the end it was just me

And He said: 

Even today I do not know exactly at what point you started 
Just as you plan ahead before conception, before refusing an entire life, looking in silence someone like you, a lifetime searching for an answer that never came. 
I learned many things from you without noticing, though I forget most importantly, I have always been. 
Not so? I was, always. 
I can not deny there was suffering, I did what you would have wanted but never forgive me for not reveal, was a photo taken without and dark flash, my essence there dormant, there is something more, you deserved more today deserve everything. 
You must not refuse, because today I acknowledge and recognize you. 
'm Your being and your my conscience and if one of them will not, then there Him 
It could not be or say ...